So here we all are at the end of another year! I’m spending my last day of the year exactly how I spent the first one – at home with my son, eating naughty food and playing silly games.
I’ve always thought NYE is one of the most overrated “nights out” of the year. Even before I had Max I never really enjoyed going out. There’s always some idiots who want to cause trouble, you can never get served at the bar cos it’s too rammed and the same shit nightclubs you always go to suddenly want to charge you £20 to hear them play the same Top 20 rubbish they play every week. It’s not for me, I always either preferred a house party or to go to work and avoid the hangover (I used to be a barmaid).
This year I’ll be at home with my son, same as the past 2 years. I’ll probably stay up to see in midnight and I’m gonna spend some time writing down my 2016 goals which I’ll post tomorrow.
Last year I wrote a huge gushing paragraph on Facebook about how much I love my family, friends etc. I’m not gonna do that this year, I’d rather reflect quietly on all that’s happened in 2015. Cheesy as it sounds, I really feel like this year I’ve been on a journey of self discovery. Everything that’s happened has made me really step back and look at my personal strengths and flaws, something which I’ve never properly acknowledged before. I think I understand myself a bit better, what I stand for and what I want out of life.
I went into 2015 feeling stressed. My nana who I worshipped had just died, I was stressed about the direction my life was going, I was stressing about the guy I was seeing and this meant I couldn’t truly enjoy the start of the year and appreciate everything I had.
I have an entirely different perspective this year. I know what direction I want my life to go in, I’m actually still seeing the same guy, but the difference is I don’t feel stressed any more. I know I can deal with whatever life throws at me because I already have done. I don’t depend on anyone else for happiness because I know that I can be happy no matter who is or isn’t in my life. It really does start with YOU.
Whatever will be, will be. Sometimes things don’t work out the way we plan. I’m gonna go into 2016 with an entirely different attitude than I did in 2015. I hope everyone else has a wonderful year, even people I don’t get along with because I’m not interested in seeing people miserable any more. We all deserve to succeed. Happy new year to everyone reading this and have fun whatever you’re doing! See you in 2016 😃