In control

I’ve honestly had such a weird couple of weeks. I dunno if it’s something in the air or what but my mood has been a bit up and down which is really unlike me. I always try to make the best out of every situation which is what I’ve been doing lately and to be honest, for every bad thing that’s happened there’s always been something good that’s cancelled it out!

I started doing some volunteer work last week which looks as if it’s going to be a lot of fun (and worthwhile). I don’t like to post too much detail on here because I don’t know who’s reading but it’s for a really good charity and the project manager is a real inspiration to me – he’s opened orphanages and schools in Kenya alongside all the fundraising he does in this country and he pretty much works 24/7 but he says he wouldn’t have it any other way. I think I’ve found my real calling in life (cheesy as it sounds) but all I want to do is help people who are less fortunate than me. I’d love to make it my career in the future.

I feel like I’ve kept my life totally in control over this past year even though I’ve had some low points. I think it’s so important not to let this stuff break you – my rule is, if ever anything upsets me I let myself have one day of self pity and then I chuck it in the fuck bucket and move on 😉. I never have and never will let anyone except myself control my emotions. Don’t give people the satisfaction of seeing you break down. I have dreams and goals and I believe I can achieve them, and no one will break my spirit. Happiness starts with YOU.

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Live for the moment

I’ve been thinking about this a lot this weekend. So many terrible events are happening in the world and I think when they do we all realise that we take a lot of things for granted. I’m definitely guilty of it from time to time.

Sometimes we have to just step back and appreciate things. Appreciate the roof over your head, your health, the wonderful people in your life. Don’t be afraid to take chances, to take a leap of faith and chase your dreams. Smile every day, hold onto the things that make you happy and let go of the things that don’t.

Life is a lot shorter and more fragile than we realise. I’ve made posts before about being stuck in a rut – escape it now. 😃

Getting rid of the dummy

When I was pregnant I said I’d never give Max a dummy. I didn’t like the idea of them or the look of them, especially on toddlers. After he was born I lasted about 3 months before the constant crying got too much and I gave in. At the time it felt like a lifesaver. I promised myself that I would only let him have it until he turned one.

Fast forward until last week when, at nearly 2 and a half he still had it, not just when he was asleep but a fair bit in the day too. I had run out of excuses as well – he wasn’t a baby any more, he was more settled at nursery and I was worried about the effect it would have on his teeth and his speech. Plus I really hate seeing older toddlers walking around with dummies in.

I’ve tried and failed to get rid of his dummy before but this time I had to go cold turkey and threw them all in the bin. The first couple of nights weren’t fun – he did cry for it at bedtime and wake up a couple of times in the night but after that he was absolutely fine. It’s been a week now and he still asks for it on occasion but he doesn’t make a fuss about it any more. I’m so glad I’ve got rid of it now before he got too much older and it was easier than I thought!

Last week’s diet and training

I said I was gonna keep a food and training diary this week just so I can look back on it and also to show people how I’m trying to bulk over the winter. I meant to post this on Sunday but I haven’t had the best few days and I forgot, so here it is now:

Monday

6.30am – hot water and lemon, multivitamins

7am (breakfast) – 1 cup of oats with full fat milk, raspberries & blueberries. 3 egg whites.

9.30am – 1 pot greek yogurt with honey

12pm (lunch) – chicken breast, cous cous & spinach

1.30pm (pre workout) – 1 slice wholemeal toast with peanut butter, 1 banana

3.30pm (post workout) – whey protein shake with creatine, glutamine & casein

5.30pm (dinner) – turkey breast, broccoli & raw carrot

7.30pm – green tea

9pm – 2 rice cakes with almond butter

Training (legs/glutes) – 4×12 squats, 4×12 kneeling squats, 4×12 cable kickbacks (each leg), 4×12 hip thrusts, 4×12 glute extensions with dumbbells (each leg).

Tuesday

6.30am – see Monday

7am – see Monday

9.30am – see Monday

12pm (lunch) – salmon fillet, brown rice and kale

1.30pm – see Monday

3.30pm – see Monday

5.30pm – homemade turkey mince burgers, sweet potato wedges and salad

7.30pm – see Monday

9pm – see Monday

Training (arms all rounder) – 4×12 dumbbell curls, 4×12 rope curls, 4×12 lying tricep extensions, 4×12 dumbbell wrist curls, 4×12 assisted dips

Wednesday (rest day)

6.30am – see Monday

7am (breakfast) – 3 egg omelette, spinach and mushrooms

9.30am – 1 pot greek yogurt with honey, apple slices & cinammon

12pm (lunch) – turkey steak, sweet potato wedges & kale

2.30pm – banana, whey protein shake

5.30pm (dinner) – salmon fillet with roasted veg

7.30pm – see Monday

9pm – see Monday

Thursday

6.30am – see Monday

7am – see Monday

9.30am – see Monday

12pm – see Monday

1.30pm – see Monday

3.30pm – see Monday

5.30pm – same dinner as Tuesday

7.30pm – see Monday

9pm – see Monday

Training (back and shoulders) – 4×12 Arnold dumbbell press, 4×12 seated dumbbell shoulder press, 4×12 cable seated lateral raises, 4×12 one arm dumbbell rows (each arm), 4×12 pulldowns, 4×12 assisted pull ups

Friday

6.30am – see Monday

7am – see Monday

9.30am – see Monday

12pm (lunch) – turkey steak, brown rice & spinach

1.30pm – see Monday

3.30pm – see Monday

5pm (dinner) – chicken breast stir fried with cabbage, kale, mushrooms, beansprouts & carrot

7.30pm – see Monday

9pm – see Monday

Training (legs) – 4×12 leg extensions, 4×12 leg curls, 4×12 leg press, 4×12 deadlifts, 4×12 barbell lunges

Saturday

6.30am – see Monday

7am – see Monday

9.30am – see Monday

12pm (lunch) – 1 tin of tuna, sweet potato jacket & salad

1.30pm – see Monday

3.30pm – see Monday

5.30pm (dinner) – grilled turkey bacon, mushrooms, poached eggs

7.30pm – see Monday

9pm – see Monday

Training (abs and calves) – 4×12 hanging leg raise, 4×12 crunches, 1 minute plank, 4×12 standing calf raises

Sunday (rest day)

6.30am – see Monday

7am (breakfast) – pancakes made with 2 egg whites, 1 whole egg, 1 banana, 1 scoop chocolate protein

9.30am – see Monday

12pm (lunch) – salmon fillet, cous cous & spinach

2.30pm – grapes & 1 rice cake with almond butter

6pm (cheat meal) – Dominos pizza, garlic bread, chicken kickers

8pm (cheat meal) – Ben & Jerry’s cookie dough ice cream

This isn’t an easy diet to sustain. It requires a lot of preparation especially if you’re out all day. It’s tricky to keep it from getting boring and trying to find seasonings that are suitable for this diet. It’s also expensive, the cost of the supplements is insane although usually I try and find a deal on (men’s health magazine usually has money off vouchers inside 😂). I did have a couple of slip ups on Friday night (I had some chocolate and crisps) but it’s part of being human and I went straight back to normal on Saturday morning.

I want to note as well that I do hardly any cardio. I do 5 minutes on the rowing machine before I work out but that’s literally it. I don’t like cardio and I’ve been told I don’t need to do it as my body type doesn’t need it. What’s suitable for me isn’t necessarily suitable for everyone else, but I wanted to write this down just to give an example of what I do towards my training goals. I’m hoping this is gonna do it 😃

Bonfire night

I’ve just put Max to bed way later than he normally goes because we went to watch a fireworks display near where we live. It was great, they had a fair and a bonfire so he went on a few rides. I was a bit worried how he’d react to the fireworks as he can be a bit sensitive but he loved it! Really glad I bought tickets, it’s the first time I’ve bothered in years.

My diet and training is going well this week although I still feel I’m not working hard enough on leg days. I dunno, I push myself when I’m in the gym but I don’t have the sore muscles the next day so I keep thinking I’m not doing enough. Gonna try and rectify this asap!

Just a short post until the end of the week, I’ll talk more about my diet and training then. For now I’m gonna relax and have a green tea 😉

The struggle to gain weight

I wanted to post this because it’s a bit of a controversial issue and it’s one that not many people think about. I see a lot of my facebook friends talk about wanting to lose weight, joining gyms and weight watchers etc. My problem is the opposite and I think a lot of people don’t realise that for someone like me it’s actually very difficult to gain weight.

I’ve always been really slim and petite ever since I was a child. I’m not sure why – I don’t know if it’s down to genetics although no one else in my family is as small as me. Sometimes I suspect I’ve got an overactive thyroid although I’ve not been diagnosed with anything. I know what people are going to say – “why are you complaining, loads of people would love to be slim” blah blah. I get that and don’t get me wrong, I like having a flat stomach especially after having a baby but on the whole it’s annoying. I hate having twiglet legs and I HATE people who feel the need to make comments like “don’t you eat” etc. I look at myself in pictures next to my friends and worry that I look unhealthy. I also get worried about my BMI dropping – I’m not underweight but I’m not far off and I don’t want to be at the unhealthy stage. Of course I eat, anyone who knows me knows I eat. I just don’t put on weight easy, just like some people who are bigger do put it on easy, it’s that simple.

I did gain weight after I had Max. In 2013/14 I was about 2 stone heavier than I am now. But the weight pretty much all went on my stomach, arms and face which is not where you want it to go. Also that weight gain was achieved in a really unhealthy way – basically by sitting at home most of the day and eating junk. And when I say junk I mean by 9am I’d have had sugary cereal, 8 biscuits with my tea and a latte with some kind of syrup in it (and I’d carry on like this all day).

My goal now is to gain weight and muscle the healthy way. I have been training since September but I feel like I’m not pushing myself enough and if you want to see change you have to really work for it. Tomorrow I’m starting a new diet diet and training plan with weight gain in mind and at the end of the week I’ll post what I’ve done daily. Sometimes you really have to dedicate yourself to what you want in life and it’s time I started. Bring it on 😊